Secrets

Today was a really nice day... Maximum I'll give is 7/10....

Sometimes in life(like today), you do some things that people find utterly pointless or no reason behind the action, but a side trip from the main road usually gives you some extra and surprising information... Today I gained a lot of perspective in life... I realised that things can't be judged so easily.... Maybe I've been too judgemental and too stereotyping... I hope that I can change for the better, with God's help....

THAT was my general summary... Or rather, it was the main idea of the day...
THIS is the subtopic... Round 1 of RS has been rather successful.. In two days time, it'll b time to put in action Round 2... Round 3 will be next friday starting off... Then exams and Round 4 will b during the holidays.... By that time, if all goes smoothly, I'll recover fully and back to normal... The above is meant to be vague... If you can't understand, don't bother asking the details....

I've been debating within myself what I should do about myself... I just realised how blur we can be.. I JUST recently realised what I should have done.. Put things in God's hand... Now, I'm placing everything to Him... For He has said, "...for my yoke is easy and my burden is light..." So, I have decided to share my burden with Him....

This post is supposedly entitled "Secrets" but I ended up going away from the topic... Id' suck at writing any novel or whatever... Anyway,coming back, I've realised the more time I spend with people, the more my secrets are being slowly opened.. Actually, I don't really have secrets, but I normally don't divulge everything about my life to other people.. Like one of my friends said, " I never knew about this this this and that that that.."... I learnt from the very beginning, that when you share things with people, you arm them with the most poisonous and mst hurtful weapon... I've learnt that when my supposed 'secrets' are spread, I get very bad results so I've learnt to keep to myself and stopped trusting people TOO much.. I mean, I still trust people, b I don't make anyone close to my heart.. I used to share my secrets to my dog, but then she died... Hahaha... Talking to my dog makes me so much more relaxed... After that, everything started building and building.. People say writing in a diary helps and I've tried, but it doesn't help that much, so I've resorted to talking to walls...Which is much much more effective.... And when I found someone, I got a bit too desperate and scared said person off... Right now, I'm being relatively vague but the smarter people should be able to glean the basic context.. This is actually better than diaries but worse than walls... I need a dog soon... Haish... The secrets people tell me can just start spilling out of my ears... Teachers secrets, friends secrets, relationship secrets, bgr secrets, school secrets, marriage secrets... etc etc... The only thing
I'm missing, is national secrets then I'll have all the categories already... Hahaha.. As per se, I'm crapping... So right now I've fulfilled the topic and I can post this with a clean conscience....


Ending here!!! :)


Su.
P.S: Hopefully my 'round' planning thingy works... Otherwise I'll be in big trouble....

Awesome....

This week was an awesome week....I mean, altho the week hasn't ended and there's been it's ups and downs, overall, it's a great week.... I got to know some new guys.... Give some space with my old friends.... Learning to forgive.... Learning to get used to people changing... Best of all, MUSIC!! We had fun!!! With music...

You know how people always say: "If only I could do this...", "If only I could do that..."?? For me, all my life, there wouldn't be A THING that I'd change in my life....Even if I could go back, there's nothing I'd miss, add, re-do.... Because it's those mistakes that make me, me.... It's because of mistakes that make me realise my true friends, my weirdly close friends and my normal friends whom I'll have to stay away because of their change of views, principles so on so forth.....

One thing I really can't comprehend.. The increase of BGR in schools among teenagers.... I'm really not judging anyone, but I don't get what's d reason...Of all the reasons I've heard, the best is a girl telling me: " He asked me and I said 'yes' "... At that point, I wondered.. What really causes people to "couple up"(for lack of a better term)?? I guess it's the stress, the whole pressure thing... But if that's the case, how did u manage for the earlier part of your life???

Haha... My exams are next next week, and I'm worrying about things like this... How childish... This is how I am... Conflicted, blur, undecided, worse of all, judgemental...These are my flaws, but I am not perfect and I'll never be... But I'm a work in progress...

So, since I have finished jotting down my thoughts for the time being and my niece is tugging at my shirt and others, it's time to sign off....

Su...

Japan....

Recently I've heard loads of stuff from my friends about the Japan earthquake+tsunami. One weird thing that struck me is how everyone just seems worried about what will happen to us HERE, in Malaysia.... No one talked about helping them or even thinking about them...

Today I went to church and pastor actually was talking about this earthquake; what was the prophetic meaning behind it, what the bible says about it and some other stuff which I heard but didn't 'speak' to me....Much..
I realise most of us are having the spirit of complacency. We're in our comfort zone, contentful with our status quo , unconcerned and indiffernet to things happening around us....
Complacncy is when we are devoid of feelings. Our spirit has gone to sleep, our nerves have been numbed, dull to the point where we cannot even see or sense that the times a=have changed and it is TIME TO GET OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE!!!! Wake up!!!

In the sermon, there was part that I really remembered..
People who are complacent, they are like "wine left on its dregs".Anyone heard of that saying???
Ever wondered the story behind it??
In the old times, wine was made from grapes. Before it could become wine, it had to be left with sediments, for a certain time. Then, when the grapes had become wine, it had to be poured out from the jar and separated from the dregs. If it is left there, the wine will harden together with its dregs and stick to the edges of the wine jar until the whole jar has to be destroyed.
Moral: Complacency hardens a person and causes indifference and also intaminates others. Complacency is not a neutral spirit. It intimidates people, even passionate people, and causes them to pull back and give up.

Quote: The only thing neccessary for evil to triumph is for good man to do NOTHING.(Edmund Burke)

Conclusion: We HAVE to do something, NOW!!!